Nicole's Testimony
Joe,
Here is my testimony
for you.
When I was age 5 I saw small gray in bedroom in house, daytime, woke
up from nap with my Mom and looked in a full length mirror and saw
gray on floor looking out from under the bed, could not process what
I was seeing, thought it was a child, or an old bald man, then could
not categorize and thought it was a monster. Was not having a dream,
noted at the time this was not a dream. Thought of touching it, but
was scared it might bite me or have teeth. Was scared, curled up by
Mom and went back to sleep. Remember asking her if she saw anything
after I woke and nap was over.
My Mother remembers me asking her if she had seen anything strange
after the nap.
I remember telling my parents a year later, after seeing ET at the
movies, that I had seen an ET in the bedroom.
My mother remembers me telling them this about age 6. My feeling at
the time was essentially "Darn, I could have had a fun adventure
with the ET but I was too scared, I am so dumb, I missed my
opportunity."
Had night terrors some as a young child, around this age, remember
woke up at least 1 time dreaming about a multitude of bugs, looked
at the wall and thought I saw bugs crawling on it, lots of screaming
and it woke my parents up. Also was insistent on checking under the
bed and in closet for monsters.
skip to age 12-14 liked my bed mattresses on the floor with no
frame, skip to age 16-18 had frame again and memory of this event
when I was 5, still checking under bed for monsters/aliens. Habitual
routine every night or I could not sleep.
There were no "alien abduction" events from ages 5-20, that I
remember, though many other supernatural/paranormal events which
could not be classified as "alien abduction".
I became a born-again Christian Age 20.
In trying to understand many paranormal things that happened to me,
while reading the Bible, asking God for understanding, the Holy
Spirit seemed to tell me that the alien experience I remembered from
when I was 5 tied into the Bible in the verse "And I saw 3 evil
spirits like frogs come out of the mouth of the dragon and the beast
and the false prophet." So I realized this alien was a demon/fallen
angel. I have done much thinking and research on understanding how
the "alien" phenomena fits into that verse since then.
Age 20 noted weird bump on my face under the skin. It never went
away. Age 21 second bump inch or so away from first bump, slightly
bigger, it appeared seemingly overnight and I noticed this acutely.
Age 21-23 very concerned that I had some sort of tumors or mouth
cancer, from smoking (had been smoking for 10 years by age 23). Had
great amount of stress worrying about this. Though I had insurance I
did want want this to get checked out because I was hopeful if I
kept praying about it and kept faith that God would heal it, that it
would heal without medical intervention, or at least if tumors they
would stay benign and not get bigger. Age 23 quit smoking for many
reasons, one of which was trying to meet God half way on the
tumor/mouth cancer issue.
Age 23-24 one day noticed I was habitually tounging this hard bump
inside my mouth, and realized I never used to do that, and realized
this bump was something new. It was a hard under flesh spot on the
jaw bone, could not be a flesh growth like a tumor, and I could not
figure out what it was.
About 4 months later I was watching the Karla Turner DVD I got from
Alien Resistance, along with many Ancient of Days conference DVDs,
and the Holy Spirit really seemed to make Turner's statements on
automatic or nonvoluntary repression of abduction memories (ie
fallen angels have control over the repression and there is no
personal choice in this repression), and also the ability for later
recovery of these memories. This struck a chord, and at this point I
started having memories come back of an "alien abduction"
experience. Some of the memories were more body/sensory, and some
were visual, some was pieces of conversation. Altogether, what
happened went something like this:
My eyes were shut and I was paralyzed and felt drugged, sorta like
one might feel when very drunk but without any burning or nausea or
dizziness. I felt like I was lying in bed on my back, I thought I
must be in my bed, I looked to the left, open my eyes, expected to
see my significant other there, he was not, I didn't see my bedroom,
instead I saw a concrete gray room, the light extended out a little
ways, but most everything was in shadow, I could move my head and
looked around, I saw three grays standing over me, 2 were kinda
holding me, another was moving around some. I was intrigued watching
all this. They were not causing pain... but then they molested me
some, And then there was some telepathic conversation...
for the most part it was really annoying/irritating and also it was
hard to focus. I tried to move, but I was paralyzed... eventually
they got out a big drill and stuck it in my mouth, it hurt, I tried
to ignore the pain and think about something else, but it really
really hurt, and I think I eventually blacked out from the pain.
Anyway, once I remembered this, I placed the event to having
happened in late Dec of 2006. And looking back, I remembered I had
been reading on AR somewhere about 'seeing things out of the corner
of your eyes moving' preceding an abduction, and remembered I had
been experiencing that happen within a week of this abduction event.
I am thinking it was May or June I started experiencing 'seeing
things move out of the corner of my eyes' again one night. And I
realized I might soon have to deal with another abduction
experience, even though I knew what it was... I knew it was evil
spirits... so I got on the AR and then your CE4 website right then
and read the guide to self-deliverance on there, and verbally
rebuked outloud in the name and authority of Jesus Christ. Just what
is written in the guide to self-deliverance, "The Lord Jesus Christ
Rebuke You, The Lord Adonai Rebuke You! ..." And I stopped seeing
things move out of the corner of my eyes.
I haven't had an abduction experience since, that was May/June of
2007.
Also about 2 months ago I had a very real-seeming dream. In the
dream I woke up and my husband was there sleeping, and there was a
decapitated alien gray head in between us in the bed. And I felt
like I couldn't talk, but I kept trying until I rebuked it in the
name and authority of Jesus Christ in the dream. "The Lord Jesus
Christ Rebuke You!" Then I dreamed I woke up, and was telling my
husband about the dream (still dreaming though) and when he was
acting weird I realized I was still dreaming, and finally really
woke up! And then I really told my husband about it. Real-seeming
dream within a dream within a dream, I have no doubt demons were
attacking me that night. I know this is part of what I have heard
you talk about with the 8 R's, the 6th R is Resist, "when it tries
to come back, resist it" this is because it will try to come back,
this is typical and normal, they do try to come back and you need to
show your resolution to continue resisting them.
I also vaguely remember a couple other abduction experiences, both
are fuzzy on details, they are probably from when I got the other 2
bumps in my face.
I still don't know whether these bumps are growths the fallen angels
caused to happen, or foreign objects, but I have no doubt they
caused them or put them there. I am sure they are like most foreign
objects found in abductees, little pieces of metal or ceramic, with
no apparent technological function. I don't believe they are
technology, they don't do anything, more just like a pebble in your
shoe, they are annoying. I believe these fallen angels cause these
in abductees to strengthen the belief paradigm that these are real
ETs from another place, biological entities of some kind, its all
just part of the deception to get people to think they are "aliens"
instead of the fallen angels that they are.
I know I no longer need to be afraid of them, or worry about these
bumps, as the bumps are harmless, and Jesus Christ protects me from
them harassing me or violating me in that way anymore. Jesus makes
it so I don't have to deal with them anymore, He keeps me safe, and
I trust Him in that, I have Faith in Him to do that, He has done
that, and He is so Good!
Thank you so much
for doing all the work you do to let others know that they don't
have to keep suffering from abductions, that Jesus Christ wants to
help them be set free from these attacks. God Bless You.
-Nicole