Hi here's a condensed version of the happenings in my
life. Feel free to use all or part, but please use only my first name to
protect my custody of my children. I mention a lot of dreams and other stuff
because I feel strongly that they somehow tie in together. About age 3 or 4
the lucid nightmares and obe's started. In half the nightmares I was being
chased by 2ft.demons,the other half I'm standing off to the side watching
people going into a lake of lava while someone is standing next to me saying
I'm responsible for figuring out how to stop them. These nightmares were
unusual because I didn't believe in God or demons and of the terrifying
reality and frequency and that I have always felt watched. They continued
for several years then stopped for a couple of decades until they started in
similar form a year ago. About age 14 I woke up in the middle of an obey and
found myself on a stone alter naked being ceremoniously oiled up in what
seemed to be a dungeon or cave. Surprise, shock, and fear brought me back
awake in my bed right away. I still don't what to think about this because I
was raised to believe in math and science, not God and demons or anything
supernatural. In '93 the night before my public alter call I finished
nursing my baby and started to roll over when on my back I was held down by
what felt like a heavy blanket, I couldn't scream or move and the room was
too black; then I heard a male voice speak next to my ear in another
language. I finally croaked out "Jesus Christ" and it was over. I was so
scared that I don't think I'm the one that came up with that idea. In the
summer of '00 lucid nightmares and dreams started again that blurred the
line between them and obe's. In Nov.of'00 I was fasting a little for a few
weeks when I started seeing silhouettes of people around me even seeing
features of the room and they're faces. I would sometimes feel them touching
me or moving my hand or leg while wide awake. I got so scared I quit fasting
and started drinking and smoking again and the visions stopped for
awhile.Apr.13,'01 I started having obe's day and night. Something was trying
very hard to separate me from my body. Sometimes I would feel and hear a
buzzing right before it would start. Once while doing housework I felt like
I was hit on the head with a sledgehammer that separated my spirit from my
body by a couple of inches. These were happening several times a day and
night. When they were able to get me away from my body I would be in a room
with people standing around me. I would pray to God in the name of Jesus to
help me and I would come back. It was happening so often that it was prayer
or sheer force of will that would keep me here or get me back. Once I got so
mad about the frequency of the intrusions that were draining my peace of
mind my fear started to diminish, so did the intrusions. I still hear
someone walking around my house, kicking things sometimes and the obe's
still happen a few times a week, but only when I'm asleep and I sometimes
wake up with deep black bruises on my hips and hind; too many to just be
accidents. I still haven't gotten used to the idea that my world has
apparently never been what it seems. But now I'm more pissed than scared
that they destroyed a loving little girl's life and peace. I strongly
believe that I've learned that prayer, awareness,& empowerment are great
tools to help us to win. I can't thank you enough for being an immediate
friend and sharing what you know. This is the loneliest "place" I've ever
been in and it helps more than you know to have a man of God take me
seriously after the lack of help some churches were. I don't think churches
know what to do with this "stuff". I didn't completely believe in UFO's
until I saw the overwhelming similarities to what I'd been going through
since ~3yrs.old.I would have lucid night- mares recently about aliens and
abduction type experiences and then months later read almost the exact same
story from an abductee. I can only hope at this point that mine were only
dreams. I'm afraid to know otherwise. This really is my condensed version.
I'll keep in touch and keep you up to date on the war. Your Friend
'Sue'
