The CE4 Research Group
Testimony – 6
Here is my testimony for you.
When I was age 5 I saw small gray in bedroom in house, daytime, woke up from nap with my Mom and looked in a full length mirror and saw gray on floor looking out from under the bed, could not process what I was seeing, thought it was a child, or an old bald man, then could not categorize and thought it was a monster. Was not having a dream, noted at the time this was not a dream. Thought of touching it, but was scared it might bite me or have teeth. Was scared, curled up by Mom and went back to sleep. Remember asking her if she saw anything after I woke and nap was over.
My Mother remembers me asking her if she had seen anything strange after the nap.
I remember telling my parents a year later, after seeing ET at the movies, that I had seen an ET in the bedroom.
My mother remembers me telling them this about age 6. My feeling at the time was essentially “Darn, I could have had a fun adventure with the ET but I was too scared, I am so dumb, I missed my opportunity.”
Had night terrors some as a young child, around this age, remember woke up at least 1 time dreaming about a multitude of bugs, looked at the wall and thought I saw bugs crawling on it, lots of screaming and it woke my parents up. Also was insistent on checking under the bed and in closet for monsters.
skip to age 12-14 liked my bed mattresses on the floor with no frame, skip to age 16-18 had frame again and memory of this event when I was 5, still checking under bed for monsters/aliens. Habitual routine every night or I could not sleep.
There were no “alien abduction” events from ages 5-20, that I remember, though many other supernatural/paranormal events which could not be classified as “alien abduction”.
I became a born-again Christian Age 20.
In trying to understand many paranormal things that happened to me, while reading the Bible, asking God for understanding, the Holy Spirit seemed to tell me that the alien experience I remembered from when I was 5 tied into the Bible in the verse “And I saw 3 evil spirits like frogs come out of the mouth of the dragon and the beast and the false prophet.” So I realized this alien was a demon/fallen angel. I have done much thinking and research on understanding how the “alien” phenomena fits into that verse since then.
Age 23-24 one day noticed I was habitually tounging this hard bump inside my mouth, and realized I never used to do that, and realized this bump was something new. It was a hard under flesh spot on the jaw bone, could not be a flesh growth like a tumor, and I could not figure out what it was.
About 4 months later I was watching the Karla Turner DVD I got from Alien Resistance, along with many Ancient of Days conference DVDs, and the Holy Spirit really seemed to make Turner’s statements on automatic or nonvoluntary repression of abduction memories (ie fallen angels have control over the repression and there is no personal choice in this repression), and also the ability for later recovery of these memories. This struck a chord, and at this point I started having memories come back of an “alien abduction” experience. Some of the memories were more body/sensory, and some were visual, some was pieces of conversation. Altogether, what happened went something like this:
My eyes were shut and I was paralyzed and felt drugged, sorta like one might feel when very drunk but without any burning or nausea or dizziness. I felt like I was lying in bed on my back, I thought I must be in my bed, I looked to the left, open my eyes, expected to see my significant other there, he was not, I didn’t see my bedroom, instead I saw a concrete gray room, the light extended out a little ways, but most everything was in shadow, I could move my head and looked around, I saw three grays standing over me, 2 were kinda holding me, another was moving around some. I was intrigued watching all this. They were not causing pain… but then they molested me some, And then there was some telepathic conversation…
for the most part it was really annoying/irritating and also it was hard to focus. I tried to move, but I was paralyzed… eventually they got out a big drill and stuck it in my mouth, it hurt, I tried to ignore the pain and think about something else, but it really really hurt, and I think I eventually blacked out from the pain.
Anyway, once I remembered this, I placed the event to having happened in late Dec of 2006. And looking back, I remembered I had been reading on AR somewhere about ‘seeing things out of the corner of your eyes moving’ preceding an abduction, and remembered I had been experiencing that happen within a week of this abduction event.
I am thinking it was May or June I started experiencing ‘seeing things move out of the corner of my eyes’ again one night. And I realized I might soon have to deal with another abduction experience, even though I knew what it was… I knew it was evil spirits… so I got on the AR and then your CE4 website right then and read the guide to self-deliverance on there, and verbally rebuked outloud in the name and authority of Jesus Christ. Just what is written in the guide to self-deliverance, “The Lord Jesus Christ Rebuke You, The Lord Adonai Rebuke You! …” And I stopped seeing things move out of the corner of my eyes.
I haven’t had an abduction experience since, that was May/June of 2007.
Also about 2 months ago I had a very real-seeming dream. In the dream I woke up and my husband was there sleeping, and there was a decapitated alien gray head in between us in the bed. And I felt like I couldn’t talk, but I kept trying until I rebuked it in the name and authority of Jesus Christ in the dream. “The Lord Jesus Christ Rebuke You!” Then I dreamed I woke up, and was telling my husband about the dream (still dreaming though) and when he was acting weird I realized I was still dreaming, and finally really woke up! And then I really told my husband about it. Real-seeming dream within a dream within a dream, I have no doubt demons were attacking me that night. I know this is part of what I have heard you talk about with the 8 R’s, the 6th R is Resist, “when it tries to come back, resist it” this is because it will try to come back, this is typical and normal, they do try to come back and you need to show your resolution to continue resisting them.
I also vaguely remember a couple other abduction experiences, both are fuzzy on details.
As for the bump in my mouth, after believing for 2 years it was an implant, I came to realize it is something called a “tori”, and lots of people get these (who aren’t abductees). I believe these fallen angels maybe could have caused it to grow there, but they also might not have. It could have been there already naturally, and I might just not have noticed it at first. I also think fallen angels could play on pre-existing things like these in abductees to strengthen the belief paradigm that these are real ETs from another place, biological entities of some kind, its all just part of the deception to get people to think they are “aliens” instead of the fallen angels that they are. So it could be I experienced a drill in my mouth, just so they could get me to think this tori that was already there, was an “implant” that they put in.
I know I no longer need to be afraid of them, or worry about the “implant”, which may have had nothign to do with the experiences in the first place, and Jesus Christ protects me from them harassing me or violating me in that way anymore. Jesus makes it so I don’t have to deal with them anymore, He keeps me safe, and I trust Him in that, I have Faith in Him to do that, He has done that, and He is so Good!
Thank you so much for doing all the work you do to let others know that they don’t have to keep suffering from abductions, that Jesus Christ wants to help them be set free from these attacks. God Bless You.